22 Apr My social media confessions

Whenever I’m alone, I’m mostly hooked to my phone checking social media. I don’t think I ever had anyone telling me to stop paying attention to my phone, though. I think it’s a bit rude to be on the phone all the time while I’m with family or friends. Of course, I wouldn’t like it if anyone does this when I’m with them. Not long ago, I started having a problem going to sleep. Why? Because I keep checking stuff online. I have a FOMO. I am social media addicted.

I’m always reading my Twitter timeline. I want to read all of the tweets. What are the benefits of this? I don’t know! It doesn’t affect my work because I’m good at multitasking. At night, I don’t want to put away my phone. After I checked Twitter, I moved on to Facebook and then Instagram. Oh, it’s been 10 minutes, and there must be new tweets! It’s going on a loop. The next thing I know, it’s already 2 am. The first thing I do when I wake up is to check social media!!! LOL!

I joined Twitter because I wanted to follow famous people that I like. Then random people start following me. It makes me feel good when I get more followers. I felt accepted by someone. I have no idea why they’re following me as I barely tweet anything that benefits other people. I only rant. I tried to get attention from people. I want more people to follow me. I never click “like” on my posts, though. I care about those numbers, whether it’s going up or down.

One day I thought about why do I have to care how many people are following me? People can use my words against me when I say something stupid. I want to protect my privacy. I want to share things without getting into trouble. There are many times I feel like complaining about things. I wrote a very long Facebook status, posted it, and deleted it when I felt better. I got it out of my chest. I don’t want to see that post haunting me in the future. I want to let it go.

Today I see social media as my online diaries. Twitter is for ranting. This week I deleted many people from following me. I thought having more people following me would make me feel good. Well, having to post anything without fearing people will like it or not make me happier! And that’s my confessions.